Then Mike had to complain about the laundry and how it hasn't been done yet and he doesn't have any shirts to wear. The poor guy because I laid into him and then he went to work and I sent him a nasty email. He really didn't deserve any of it. I was trying to be in control of my emotions but I just can't handle fighting and with being sleep deprived, I just fell into a black pit of despair and I brought up every imaginable thing he had ever done wrong. Then the more I thought the more depressed I got. He was trying to be nice but I did hurt him and that realization made me even more upset. So I cancelled our plans to go and see a little Thomas the Tank play and decided to clean the house.
I got the house done, well about 75% and my mood has slowly gotten better. I still feel really badly about being so awful. I decided that I should go to bed early like 8 or 9pm.
The high point of my day so far is that I got my walk done. I am proud because I really wanted to curl into bed and wallow in my misery. I have brownies tonight so I knew I would be out and it is hard to do the walk after the meeting. Plus I should talk to Mike and spend some time with him after this morning. So I put Ally down and strapped Zoe on. And afterwards, I even had some time for tea and chocolate to help my mood.