Friday, January 28, 2011


On Monday I decided to start counting my calories again.  I did Weight Watchers before my wedding so I am familiar with counting.  I like the flexibility and it helps that 'there's an app for that'....lame...I know!  I found that the goals that I set at the beginning of the month has become unrealistic.  My desire for sweets and the instant boost would derail my good intentions and then I would allow it to throw my whole day.  Counting calories allows me to have candy or chocolate as long as I write it down.  And by writing it down and knowing my calorie limit it motivates me to only have one.

I have done well all this week by counting calories and so far, I think the scale may be down on Monday.  I am also focusing on high protein meals and one trick I discovered was to put protein powder in my coffee.  You can barely taste it...once you cover it with splenda and creamer it is delicious!

Wish me luck to count over the weekend...I have a hard time on the weekends.

Monday, January 24, 2011


I apologize for my last depressing post.  I ended up having a wonderful birthday thanks to my sister and my bestie.

Hehe...bestie...that word makes me giggle.

This weekend I went and stayed at my sisters house.  Her husband was nice enough to sleep on a deflating air mattress so that Georgia, Danielle and I could stay up all night talking.  Well...I actually hoped Georgia would sleep...oh well.

Then I went out with my friends for dinner, I indulged in some delicious drinks and cheesecake.  It was a great night!

Friday, January 21, 2011

Twenty - Eight

Yesterday was my birthday.  I turned 28....this is a weird age for me because back when I was 16 or younger and planning my life, 28 is when it all started.  I planned that I would be in school for about 10 years; I was going to get my phd in psychology.  Then get married, then children were to follow.  Strange how things change.

For the most part I love how things have turned out.  It is weird how completely different my plan was from the choices I made to get here. 

Honestly, this year and I think the last couple of years, my birthday has really depressed me.  I don't know why, I used to love my birthday.  I would count down from the beginning of December, I would celebrate my birth moment (2:10pm).  I am sure I was quite annoying. 

I am in a funk right now and I don't know why.  I am still processing things.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Officially a WAHM

After today, I think I can offically say I am a work at home mom.  Yes, it is true I am finally earning my keep around here.  I can only wait until it starts effecting my shoe budget. 

Last week I set up a one day a week arrangement with a day home right down the street.  The sitter for a lack of a better word is wonderful!  She is easy going and the girls seem to really enjoy themselves.  They barely looked up from playing when I arrived to pick them up.  I got some much work done in 5 1/2 hours with a bit of a break here and there to tend to Georgia. 

This week I was really thrown into the ring, I laid off my first staff, called several clients regarding past due invoices and discussed ad design ideas with a new client.  Big, scary stuff but I did it.  I really, really hate confrontation and having the laying off discussion was extremely nerve-wracking but once I got started it went really well.  I also hate calling strangers on the phone, I will do everything I possibly can to get out of it.  But went it is your family depending on the business, there is no end to the motivation to do the hard stuff. 

I am really excited about taking a very active role in our business and I think the direction it is headed in with our new staff postion is going to lead to great success!

This week with the day home and preschool back in session really helped bring back a semblance of routine to our lives.  Ally has started sleeping terribly again and that is so exhausting.  Last night she was up every hour after midnight.  She couldn't sleep and Mike and I were exhausted.  We yelled, took toys away, gave toys back, gave some milk then some water, we did everything in between.  By the time 4am came we were pleading for her to just play in her room and let us sleep.  She couldn't, she needed the interaction or something.  At 4:30am Mike and I couldn't sleep and I actually started thinking that we should just get up and start working.  Then Ally started hollering again and Mike went and laid with her. So we got 3 hrs of sleep.  Now guess how many times Georgia was up?  Once!  Yes she actually slept 6 hours straight.  I would rather be up nursing a baby every hour then dealing with a screaming, sleep deprived preschooler any day.

Now, you may ask, how is all this affecting your healthy eating?  Well.....*blush* I am not doing well.  Stress and vegetables don't seem to mix.  I am doing ok but there is tons of room for improvement.  I am thankful to my friends who are helping me through facebook and email.  I will get there soon and maybe do another marathon!

Friday, January 7, 2011


Yeah for Friday!  This has been a hard week.  I have been incredibly busy and it has been a challenge to get back to our regular routine.  And now the girls are sick.  But in 8 hours I will be saved!  My mother-in-law is coming.  Seriously, no sarcasm I love my mother-in-law, she is simply wonderful and an amazing Grandma.  I am so excited that she is coming because I will get a break and the girls will get a ton of attention.

This week has gone by so fast and judging by the laundry pile that has not moved from the chair all week, I feel like I have accomplished nothing.  I have...I think....

Next week will be better, I have arranged a day home for Ally and Zoe to go to one day a week so that I can concentrate on running Coffee News, Tupperware and if there is anytime left my house.  The day home is right around the corner so we can walk there when it gets warm.  Part of me doesn't like that I won't be taking care of them but it is also not fair for me to sit in the office every day doing stuff here and there.  It will be best to consolidate my work time to one day so that I can concentrate on the kids.

I really hope that some normalcy and routine will help things around here because I am really struggling.  I am just managing every day.  It is like I am constantly running on empty and each day I get 1/4 filled up and it is gone by noon.  I hate feeling this way because anything puts me on edge or over.  Georgia not going to sleep the way I want will almost make me cry.  Or Ally or Zoe misbehaving will make me snap and lose my temper much sooner than I used to.  I also feel like I have this mountain of a 'To-do' list and each day I go up half way and only to slide back down.

So due to the way I am feeling my eating has not been anywhere close to where I want it.  I barely have been able to eat breakfast and I find if I eat breakfast then the rest of my day goes much better eating wise.  No sugar has not happened here AT ALL.  I have used the remaining sweets in my house as a reward for getting through the day or until nap time.  It is sad but I know it will change.  My health is important but my focus is on my kids right now.  And each day I do better and I am eating far less sugar than I was at Christmas.

My friend Shannon (check her blog out - it is a great read.) and I have teamed up to help support each other in our diets.  We are checking in with each other twice a week.  This week my goal is to eat breakfast and to continue with water.  I am taking it easy on myself because each small step toward being healthy is one step closer.

What are you goals this week?

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Happy New Year!

I am excited for the New Year.  This past year has been wonderful and I know the next will be great.  Many challenges are head for one I get to learn how to manage a business and staff while raising 3 children.  Mike has gotten a great consulting gig so I am taking over most of the day to day running of Coffee News.  I did a lot before Christmas but I am going to get some childcare help 1 day a week so I can take on more.  I am nervous but I know I can do it.

I think it is also time to start focusing on eating healthy and hopefully weightloss.  I also want to figure out how to exercise more this year.  I am not going to make any resolutions because this journey is not a one year task.  I am however going to start this month with a few short term goals.

The first goal is going to start today, after all the baking and excess of the holidays I have decided to cut out my drug of choice - sugar.  I am not going to eat anything that is obviously sugar laden for a week and do my best to look at labels.  This will be extremely hard so I am only making it a week and if it goes well then I will expand on it.

The next goal is to only eat home cooked meals this month except for one.  My birthday is this month and I am not sure if I am doing anything or not, but I will allow one meal out and only for my birthday.

I am going to get back to eating well and drinking water.  My challenge is to get back to drinking 3 L a day.  How much water do you drink?  Could you be drinking more?