Sometimes I get so wrapped up in my plans and then I am easily frustrated with the girls and how they messed things up. And my plans aren't even that important. I don't know why, I am usually an easy going person. When I am frustrated I just can't manage the my temper or handle dealing with the girls.
On top of Zoe being sick, I am still dealing with her sleep issues. Last night was so hard! Zoe just would not sleep and she kept screaming - now this girl has the absolute worst cry it is like a screech! When she starts screeching it just drives me up the wall and I can just about lose it. When I am exhausted and she won't sleep and keeps screeching, I hate to admit it but I can understand why people shake their babies. I can control myself but I can see how someone could do it. I can control myself. Last night I discovered something to keep myself from getting frustrated and annoyed. I just start repeating over and over in my head, "I love you, Zoe. I love you, Zoe" And it really worked! I calmed down immediately and it turned the whole day around too. Usually after a tough night I am done for the next day but today went really well. Even with the girls being sick and needy.
I am learning how much easier it is when I just roll with things. I hope I can keep it up! It makes everyone much happier.
Also, another good thing happened today! I lost weight! I lose 1.2 lbs! Woohoo! I followed the diet and counted really well. I am glad that when I actually follow the diet that it works!