Exhaustion and motivation do not go together. Today is the first day since Sunday that I have exercised, Monday I put it off too long and then was tried and crabby. Tuesday, we had a crappy night and I babysat my friends kids all day. I couldn't even eat well. Today I realized that getting the exercise done in the morning really shapes may day well and then I can't procrastinate until I don't do it. The routine I did today worked really well and I think it will help with fitting in exercise. I exercised when Zoe had her morning nap. Ally likes to exercise with me and doesn't interfere with me exercising much. Starting the morning out with exercise also motivated me to do some laundry and dishes. I am now sitting while the girls nap with a cup of tea and relaxing. It is nice to enjoy some quiet time with out the pressure of having to do something.
Yesterday was a hard day because I was so tired and had 4 kids here but I did have a bit of a break through. When I am tired I do tend to get annoyed at Mike and sometimes it progresses into anger. Typically I realize what I am doing and I can talk myself out of actually saying anything to Mike or being angrry. In the past couple of months days like yesterday would downward spiral into a fight with Mike or feelings of my world falling apart or last for days on end. Now I am back to where I was before and can control my mood better.