I was thinking maybe the reason that I am finding this new goal hard to keep up is that I don't really believe that I can run for 20 minutes straight. 2 minutes right now is hard and I am scared of having to do 3 minutes on Friday! I guess it shows how out of shape I am. I think signing up for the run will be a small goal that I can reach and accomplish. With the marathon I *knew* I could do it, walking is easy. With running I barely know if I can finish the 30 minutes! And I am not even running for 30 minutes straight!
I want to keep going for my health and fitness. I need to remember why I am doing this. For weightloss and ultimately my girls. I want to run with Ally and soon enough Zoe. I don't want to get winded from playing with them. I need to keep telling myself this.
I also have been bad with my eating! Ugh...the more I write the more disappointed I am with myself. I have a good week and then slack again. I am so close to saying good bye to the 200's. It would be nice if I get there this week but I am not holding my breath. I hope I didn't gain.
Okay. It is only Tuesday. I can do this! I can run every day this week. I can eat healthy. Yes, I can!