Tuesday, December 29, 2009
I haven't written about it and I haven't told many people but today I thought, "Why not?" I have been having a really hard time lately. I am worried that I may have depression. Things seemed to have started around the miscarriage and then Mike and I also started having some major issues at the same time. But I seemed to be having more and more bad days. It seems to cycle. I will being doing really well and then something will set me off and I start going down. I am all over the place. Unfortunately Mike gets the brunt of my anger and but at least it is him and not the girls. After a lot of thought I decided to go to counselling. I don't know if it will help but I really need some perspective on my feelings and maybe some tips on how to get rid of the anger towards Mike. I hope it helps because I don't like feeling this way. I am usually in control of myself and I don't usually have mood swings. I also hope to work on my self esteem. I kind of think that it may be the root of everything or at least a major factor. Wish me luck!