Stress

This past week has been really stressful for me.  The Sunday before Thanksgiving we had an impromptu visit from a Public Health Nurse and she checked Georgia's weight at 6 days old.  Georgia was not where the charts say she should be.  I went through poor weight gain with Ally and spent 6-9 months seeing every breastfeeding specialist to figure out why I had a low supply.  It was extremely stressful and I have become a bit neurotic about weight gain.  Things with Zoe went well but I was also on domperidone from day 1.  This time I didn't want to be on medication if I could help it.  I thought things were okay until the nurse came.  The visit shattered any confidence I had.  I cried a lot and the called my midwives.  They weren't worried because they do weight checks at two weeks and more importantly Georgia looked healthy, was energetic and had more than sufficient wet diapers. 

Even though the midwives weren't worried and Mike was reminding me of all the reasons I shouldn't freak out.  I did.  I got my scale out and weighed Georgia on Tuesday, she was up and then weighed her again on Thursday she wasn't up 'enough' so I freaked out again and cried some more.  I was able to make it in and see my midwives and they reassured me some more.  And we decided to not weigh Georgia over the weekend and just stop stressing and see where her weight was on Tuesday at her two week appointment.

Yesterday was her two week appointment and she is up to 7lbs 5 oz not quite at birth weight but not enough to worry.  She is really healthy and we do have 2 other girls that have been slow gainers.  So I am happy and very proud to say that I am nursing and growing a child for the first time without medication.  This is huge and it still scares me a bit.  I just now need to be confident.

This has been a nice week because my mother-in-law has been here helping.  It is such a treat and today she took the girls back to her house for two days.  I am going to miss them but I know they will have a blast.

On to weight loss...meh...not as great as I thought it would be but whatever.  I am down 15lbs to 215lbs.  Mike and I have started to talk about what we want to do.  This is a bit earlier than I wanted but I really like that Mike is on board.  I am really excited because we  make a really good team and I feel like if we are in it together than it will be easier to make lifestyle changes.