I was asked today if I liked being a stay at home mom. I immediately said, "Most days..." but I continued to think about my choices and situation all afternoon. I have decided that a more accurate answer would be," I love being a stay at home mom but I hate being a house wife." I don't like cleaning and I only want to cook for fun. Wouldn't it be awesome if that could become my reality? Mike is trying to figure out how to get me a cleaner, which is wonderful but I do know we are tight and it probably won't happen and that is okay.
I know it will be easier in some ways when the baby has come. I find the last trimester to be soooo exhausting and I am lucky, I don't have much pain, discomfort or other major pregnancy woes. I remember when I was pregnant with Zoe asking my friend who had given birth to twins how in the world was she managing three kids when I could barely function with one. She told me that the energy level does come up after birth and in my experience so far she is right. I am really looking forward to it! I do hope I am blessed with an easy baby again so that I can spend time with the girls.
Ally will be going to preschool two mornings a week and both girls will be going into a gymnastics class. I think this will really be helpful to keep them active and relieve some of the guilt that I may have when I don't want to leave the house. With Ally's sleep being so unpredictable and a major challenge, I have been working hard at doing something active at least once a day if not more. I have fallen in love with swimming because the girls love it, it tires them out and it is easy for me with the lack of gravity. I hope we can get back to swimming as soon as possible after the baby comes.
I had my 34 week appointment yesterday and everything is going really well. Baby was heads down and I hope s/he stays that way! My blood pressure was low 102/58 but my midwife wasn't concerned so I am not either. And my weight is only up 2lbs since last appt, I am at 218 lbs!! I am really enjoying not having any worries right now. The pregnancy started with so much anxiety it is nice to just enjoy growing a child.