Day 3

So this is my 3rd day of exercise and it is going well!  My body is responding well to the exercise.  I was a bit worried because I haven't done anything since maybe 6-8 weeks along.  I almost feel like I could do more.  I always feel like the wii isn't the best work out but my muscles are sore so I am feeling it.  I also keep reminding myself that the 20 minute work out is miles better than what I was doing before and if I continue I will be fitter and healthier.  I need to learn how to pace myself because I could easily burn out.  I am also doing well with getting another 20 or so minutes of walking in.  Not everyday but it is happening.

My only worry is that I have cut out my naps to exercise and to clean/cook.  This makes me worry because I don't know how long I will be able to continue at this pace.  I hope I can but I am so close to the 3rd trimester and who knows what will happen then.

I am so happy to say that I am feeling good and I think that the exercise is really helping my mood.  I have been very emotional the last couple weeks.  There are so many factors as to why like the weather, which has been so rainy and blah.  Thankfully the sun is shining and I got a great dose of vitamin D today.

Crack down

I know, I know I have written this post or something similar 3 times now but this time I am going to do it.  I am going to crack down on the exercise.  I actually did 25 minutes already!

I had my 24 week midwife appt on Tuesday.  Everything is great, blood pressure was 110/60 and my fundal height was 26cm which I thought was funny because I have been feeling small.  My midwife thinks my weight gain has been amazing.  I am pretty happy with it but I know it is really due to luck than actual work.  In my mind I started this pregnancy at 205 but according to my 12 week appt I started at 199.  And this week's weight was 208 so that is a 9lb gain.  I am really trying to only gain 15, not that I will be upset with more.  With the last two pregnancies I have gotten up to 225-230lbs so I know I can get back to 200lb.  I just want to do better this time especially since I seem to be unable to lose weight while nursing and as much as I hate the number on the scale I am pretty comfy for now at 200lbs. 

So I am going to really focus on exercising and I know the food will come from there.  My goal is to do a minimun of 20 minutes a day and hopefully work up to an hour.  I set up at custom workout on the wii to focus on toning and specifically squats.  Check this post out here for why I am focusing on squats which I will get into later.  I like the wii because I can do it while the girls play and it is cute to see them join me.  Zoe is really good at squats.  Then I want to do 20 minutes on the treadmill or out walking.

I hope I can stick to my plan but I am going to bribe myself because it is a great motivator for myself.  I have just joined an online book club and my bribe for this week is I can not buy the book until I have completed 7 days of exercise.  Wish me luck!

Anniversary

Today marks my 4 year anniversary of growing children.  I have been nursing or pregnant straight for the last 4 years.  That is pretty amazing!  I love being a mother so much.  I love how it has shaped me as a person and made me stronger.  Each child has taught me something about myself.

Thank you Ally, Zoe and #3 for making this the best and hardest 4 years of my life. 

Sad

I realized last night during Glee that I would have been 39 weeks this week.  It breaks my heart that my little baby will never meet her sisters.  I will never hold, kiss, nurse her.  But I can love her and I will think of her always.  My little June bug.

Going

So I am getting into a groove with the cleaning and what not.  I am starting to like it a bit.  I do still get pretty cranky but it is nice that things are slowly getting done and it is not that stressful.  I have noticed one major side effect.  This is a bit TMI but oh well.  My libido has died.  I feel bad for Mike but I have no interest AT  ALL.  This is strange for me because when I am pregnant I am blessed with a very high libido and normally I am above average.  It is sad but at least  I have something to show for it.  I don't even miss it.

Weight wise...I have started to gain...darn!  Mike and I went out for dinner and a movie on Friday and I enjoyed myself.  I am up about 2-3 lbs from eating bad this weekend.  I hope that it is just water retention or something like that but I haven't been eating well so I have been expecting it.  Mike is back on his diet so we are buying more vegetables and he is cooking more which helps me tremendously.  I also need to start exercising again.  I haven't done well as usual...my hope is to get my exercise room cleaned up again and get back on the treadmill.

I am getting my hair dyed this afternoon.  I am really excited and I hope there is time to get something really cool done.  I have noticed that dark colors are in so I am thinking about that but Mike wants me to go blond.  Which I really don't think would look good on me and I can't imagine the maintenance.