Crack down

I know, I know I have written this post or something similar 3 times now but this time I am going to do it.  I am going to crack down on the exercise.  I actually did 25 minutes already!

I had my 24 week midwife appt on Tuesday.  Everything is great, blood pressure was 110/60 and my fundal height was 26cm which I thought was funny because I have been feeling small.  My midwife thinks my weight gain has been amazing.  I am pretty happy with it but I know it is really due to luck than actual work.  In my mind I started this pregnancy at 205 but according to my 12 week appt I started at 199.  And this week's weight was 208 so that is a 9lb gain.  I am really trying to only gain 15, not that I will be upset with more.  With the last two pregnancies I have gotten up to 225-230lbs so I know I can get back to 200lb.  I just want to do better this time especially since I seem to be unable to lose weight while nursing and as much as I hate the number on the scale I am pretty comfy for now at 200lbs. 

So I am going to really focus on exercising and I know the food will come from there.  My goal is to do a minimun of 20 minutes a day and hopefully work up to an hour.  I set up at custom workout on the wii to focus on toning and specifically squats.  Check this post out here for why I am focusing on squats which I will get into later.  I like the wii because I can do it while the girls play and it is cute to see them join me.  Zoe is really good at squats.  Then I want to do 20 minutes on the treadmill or out walking.

I hope I can stick to my plan but I am going to bribe myself because it is a great motivator for myself.  I have just joined an online book club and my bribe for this week is I can not buy the book until I have completed 7 days of exercise.  Wish me luck!

Anniversary

Today marks my 4 year anniversary of growing children.  I have been nursing or pregnant straight for the last 4 years.  That is pretty amazing!  I love being a mother so much.  I love how it has shaped me as a person and made me stronger.  Each child has taught me something about myself.

Thank you Ally, Zoe and #3 for making this the best and hardest 4 years of my life. 

Sad

I realized last night during Glee that I would have been 39 weeks this week.  It breaks my heart that my little baby will never meet her sisters.  I will never hold, kiss, nurse her.  But I can love her and I will think of her always.  My little June bug.

Going

So I am getting into a groove with the cleaning and what not.  I am starting to like it a bit.  I do still get pretty cranky but it is nice that things are slowly getting done and it is not that stressful.  I have noticed one major side effect.  This is a bit TMI but oh well.  My libido has died.  I feel bad for Mike but I have no interest AT  ALL.  This is strange for me because when I am pregnant I am blessed with a very high libido and normally I am above average.  It is sad but at least  I have something to show for it.  I don't even miss it.

Weight wise...I have started to gain...darn!  Mike and I went out for dinner and a movie on Friday and I enjoyed myself.  I am up about 2-3 lbs from eating bad this weekend.  I hope that it is just water retention or something like that but I haven't been eating well so I have been expecting it.  Mike is back on his diet so we are buying more vegetables and he is cooking more which helps me tremendously.  I also need to start exercising again.  I haven't done well as usual...my hope is to get my exercise room cleaned up again and get back on the treadmill.

I am getting my hair dyed this afternoon.  I am really excited and I hope there is time to get something really cool done.  I have noticed that dark colors are in so I am thinking about that but Mike wants me to go blond.  Which I really don't think would look good on me and I can't imagine the maintenance.

Pay Off

Okay, after my downer post yesterday, things are much better.  Thanks for the kind words, Taryl!  I had an amazing day and all this cleaning and scheduling paid off.  A good friend called asked if we would like an impromptu visit, which of course we did!  I never say no to someone who wants to drive an hour to come visit.  The best part is that I didn't have to go and do a mad clean after I set the phone down.  Yeah!  I just had to finish my chores.  I am just so pleased!

The girls and I had a nice busy morning too.  The weather is still cloudy and rainy but I decided to go for a walk anyways.  Most days I don't have a vehicle because both cars are being used for the business.  In Didsbury it really isn't a problem because we can walk everywhere but sometimes I let the weather keep us indoors too much.  We went and got our hair cut, to the post office, out for lunch and then home for naps.  I am proud to say that my girls were perfect even at the hairdressers!  I was thrilled, especially with Zoe because she will usually freak out when she can't touch me but she sat on a chair drank her juice and took her socks and shoes off.  No freak out at all!  The best part is that I was able to get a cute cut too.

Now I am sitting here blogging with a clean house.  Now if my daughter would just go to sleep life would be perfect.

60%

So I did so-so at being productive.  I got most of the big chores done and kept up on the house until about Thursday.  I just was exhausted I could barely move and I was feeling like I was getting sick.  So we had a TV day.  Friday was busy but no cleaning.  I don't know if I am a total convert.  I don't like all the cleaning that needs to be done.  I do like that my house was cleaner and I did more with my kids but I just found having to work into the evening was just plain exhausting.

But I am not giving up yet. I am going to get back at it and keep getting trying.  Hopefully I will enjoy it and not be so cranky.  I think it may have been an off week.  It has also been hard because the weather has sucked and Mike has been out in the evenings.

Wish me luck and I hope my mood gets better, I feel like I have been cranky all week. 

Cracking the Whip

Life has finally calmed down and I think spring might be here.  Last week we had two nice days and we spent a lot of time outside and it was fabulous.  I can't wait for it to get nice again.  My goal for the summer is to spend most of the time outside.

Things are calmer but I still feel like I have too much to do but I am not really doing any of it.  I am not a cleaner infact I really hate it but I love a clean house.  When my house is messy it feels like a weight is on my and the worse it gets the crankier I get and I feel like I am suffocating.

In my last post I talked about how a fellow blogger started a schedule and how it made everything so much easier for her and her family.  I was and am inspired.  I know that if I was more efficient with cleaning that it wouldn't weigh me down so much and that I could actually do the things I want to do.  I would rather be doing crafts with Ally and playing with the girls. 

So after a talk with Mike I am going to set up a schedule and stick to it.  I am a big fan of rewards so I am going to bribe myself along the way.  I did the bribes with my marathon and it really  helped me to look at the steps of the goal and not get overwhelmed by the shear size of it.

This is what I want to achieve this week:
1. Keep my house clean - we are going to do a big clean tomorrow and I want to maintain it because I will be away next weekend but my brother-in-law will be coming and having guests when my house is messy stresses me out.  So my goal is to have the house clean so on Friday I am not doing a mad clean.

2. Exercise - I want to start going for walks again and I would like to do this once this week.  This may seem small but it is a 4 day week.  Eventually I would like to be going 3 or more times a week, bike riding twice and maybe even getting back on the WII.

3. I want to cut down my computer time.  'Nuff said but I am going to try and blog my progress.

4. I want to get my sewing room set up again so that I can start sewing again in the evenings.

So, wish me luck because I am naturally a lazy person but I need to get a good system going before #3 comes because things will get more difficult.